The idea of going back to diapers, diaper bags, puke, potty training, drool and all that other new baby woes is the shit that nightmares are made of and I want no parts of it. I had a very traumatizing 0-12 months. I had crazy postpartum and the days and nights and weeks and months of lack of sleep made me a crazy person. And by crazy I mean I was literally losing mind. I would make bottles for the entire week, not remembering that the shelf life was like 12 hours max. I would be doing things on auto pilot and would not remember doing them. The nights when she would cry for the sake of crying I would literally be walking in circles and zone out while walking.

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